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[Sara's Journal-Barry's Eyes Only]

June 6, 2004

And so another anniversary comes, of a day I wish I could permanently erase from my head.

But you know how that goes. The more you wish to forget something, the more you will focus on it.

I am Sara Sidle. I am a statistic in many ways.

I was a victim of domestic abuse, growing up.
I witnessed the aftermath of a murder.
I was shuffled through the foster care system.

I successfully completed schooling, surprising everyone assigned to my case. I think they expected me to kill myself before I was eighteen. Nothing beats hearing your guardian comment to a neighbor that she wished you'd get on with it.

I am Sara Sidle, survivor of all of that.

And I was raped, nine years ago this day.

A rape that has gone unsolved. And the statute of limitations is up, so even if they ever get a hit in CODIS, it would never make it to court.

I am Sara Sidle. Survivor extraordinaire. The others know how much rape cases bother me, like they know Grissom's sensitivity to child abuse cases. But not a single person has ever asked...not even Catherine, when I asked her to do Susanne's interview...

Guess that goes to show how much they care.

[The page holds traces of dried tears.]