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Sara Sidle ([personal profile] lvpd_sidle) wrote2006-10-16 03:40 pm
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OOM: Nightmare

Alone

"Please." The word is a whimper. Sara turns restlessly, bumping into Mark.

Unloved.

"Don't leave me--no, it wasn't me I swear it wasn't me..." Her body trembles, sweat gathering on her forehead.

Unwanted

"Mark, no Mark I love you I need you please......"

Her hand reaches out, seeking someone, anyone, finding only solitude, though he is beside her.

She cries, still caught in the dream, in the nightmare, in the reality she still believes she will see.
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[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 08:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Mark wakes up as she stirs. He's gotten used to waking, in case she needs him. This time, however, he freezes for a moment, before reaching out to her. He lies there for a moment, blinking.
lvpd_sidle: (crying in the rain -- ezzvaldez)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 08:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Her hands still moves and she still cries. But she doesn't make any sounds beyond continued, soft pleading.

"not again I don't want to be alone again oh god why does everyone leave?"

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 08:53 pm (UTC)(link)
He reaches out and catches her hand, holding it gently, but firmly in his own. "I'm not leaving, Sara. I'm never going anywhere. I love you." For once in Mark's life, he realizes that it mightn't be a bad thing to be the one who survives.
lvpd_sidle: (had only nightmares -- call_me_daisy)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 08:55 pm (UTC)(link)
She wakes with a start, jerking up. Then she slumps back against the pillows, rubbing her eyes with her other hand. "Shit."

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 08:58 pm (UTC)(link)
He leans over and kisses her cheek, wrapping his arms around her. "I love you." Really, it's the only thing that he really feels needs to be said right now.
lvpd_sidle: (Mark/Sara -- gippalgoogler)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
It's what she needs to hear.

It's certainly something she believes.

Yes, there is cling.

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 09:01 pm (UTC)(link)
He lets her cling, and just might cling a bit back. He keeps silent, simply letting his presance show everything that he can't exactly say.
lvpd_sidle: (broken wings -- princessjen723)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 09:04 pm (UTC)(link)
She wants to keep quiet, but something tells her that now isn't the time. That some fears needed to be shared.

"In...I dreamt...you'd found someone. In your New York. And you left."

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 09:07 pm (UTC)(link)
"I won't. I couldn't." He sighs. "Sara, you're more than I ever dreamed of. I love you more than anything in the entire world." He pauses. "I've, er, been worrying about the same thing, really."
lvpd_sidle: (Default)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 09:08 pm (UTC)(link)
"You have?" She turns to look at him, eyes serious. "Mark...."

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 09:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Mark sighs. "Can't help it. I lose everyone I love. It's just... a thing."
lvpd_sidle: (lovely -- littlelemontart)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 09:17 pm (UTC)(link)
"Loss can be considered a part of life. But I'm not going anywhere, not if I can help it." Her voice is quiet and firm. "I love my work and my friends....but not as much as I love you. Do you understand that? I need you."

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 09:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Mark bites his lip, and just hugs her tightly, his words lost in the emotions and realizations that are finally getting into his thick skull. It's probably a bit before he can speak.
lvpd_sidle: (despair -- nufaciel)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 09:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Which is good since she's still speaking, muffled against his shoulder. "...place to come home to, away from what I see every day and night. My haven......and I know I'm that for you."

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
"You are, Sara. More than I can probably say." He leans over and kisses her gently. "I want to be your home. Honestly, there's nothing I want more than for you to be happy." He'd give up everything for that.
lvpd_sidle: (Mark/Sara -- gippalgoogler)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 09:33 pm (UTC)(link)
"Don't you understand?" She closes her eyes, tears still welling. "You've already given me a home. The first one I've ever had in my life. And it's wherever you are."

A deep, hitching breath. "I know what it's like to have love walk out the door on me, to watch people I love die. I know what my life was like without you....and I don't want it like that again."

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
"Marry me, Sara." He didn't mean for it to come out like that, now, but it's no less sincere. He can't even get anything else out.
lvpd_sidle: (lovely -- littlelemontart)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 09:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Sara loses her breath and stares for a long few seconds before managing a choked, "Yes!" and clinging to him.

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 09:42 pm (UTC)(link)
He kisses her deeply for a long moment, then gets up. "Hold on a minute." It all makes sense when he returns about two minutes later with something in his hand. Opening his hand, lying innocently simple there, is an engagement ring, a perfect one-carat diamond in a platinum setting. "I guess I should make it all official."
lvpd_sidle: (engagement ring)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 09:47 pm (UTC)(link)
She can't speak.

She just holds out her hand, tears welling in her eyes once again.

But they are from happiness.

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 09:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Mark beams, putting the ring on her hand, and wrapping his arms around her, kissing her again. "I love you, Sara. And I'm never leaving you. No matter what."
lvpd_sidle: (Mark/Sara -- gippalgoogler)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 09:51 pm (UTC)(link)
"I love you, Mark. So much." She kisses him back, holding him tightly.

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
He can't even find words, just kisses her back. Part of him is still on the floor that she actually accepted.

He'll figure out logistics later. For now, he just wants to spend time with Sara. His fiancee. That's going to take some getting used to.
lvpd_sidle: (engagement ring)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 10:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"This isn't a dream." Said like she wants to be sure.

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 10:17 pm (UTC)(link)
"No, it's not a dream, Sara. I promise you it's not." He kisses her. "We're going to get married." It feels strange, somehow, saying that. It's what he wants, though, more than anything in the universe.
lvpd_sidle: (smile - tapelift)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 10:18 pm (UTC)(link)
"We are." She begins laughing, but it is a joyous sound.

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 10:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Mark's just beaming. If he was grinning any more, he might actually be glowing. "I just... wow." He grins, and decides to kiss her again, instead of fumbling for words.
lvpd_sidle: (humoring Mark -- larehewson)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 10:24 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't think I'll have that nightmare again."

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
"Oh, good." He smiles at her. "I'm not leaving."
lvpd_sidle: (happy -- tja_rama)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'm not leaving." She is still clinging. "We'll figure everything else out."

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 10:30 pm (UTC)(link)
"It'll work out. Because I'm not losing you." It's more confident than he's sounded in a long time, if ever.
lvpd_sidle: (melancholy - somanyreasons)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
"Good. I'm not losing you."

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 10:32 pm (UTC)(link)
He kisses her again. "I can't believe this is really happening." For all of his confidence, he's still in a state of shock.
lvpd_sidle: (Default)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 10:33 pm (UTC)(link)
"Me neither." She buries her face against his shoulder. "Nothing good has ever come from a nightmare."

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)
"Sometimes good can come from the strangest things." Like a mugging. Or a blown-out candle. Or a protest. He takes her hand, the one with the ring. "I promise this will be good, Sara. I promise with everything that I have."
lvpd_sidle: (bedroom eyes -- kittykaticons)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
"Don't promise to take the blame for the things that life might throw at us," she says gently. "But I can and will promise to be there every step of the way." And after if I have anything to say about it.

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 10:46 pm (UTC)(link)
"I love you." He kisses her again. "We can take on anything together."
lvpd_sidle: (model!Sara happy -- angel_nat_nat)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 10:48 pm (UTC)(link)
"We can damned well try. I love you."

[identity profile] bohemian-mark.livejournal.com 2006-10-16 10:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Mark just beams at her some more. "This is amazing. I... yeah." He leans over and kisses her.
lvpd_sidle: (engagement ring)

[personal profile] lvpd_sidle 2006-10-16 10:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Which they're likely to continue doing, and Sara certainly will not complain. Her ring catches the glint of lighting from under the hall door, glistening.
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